..here we go again..

"i never hope u'll love me nor appreciate me,

but i still wanna do the best for u,me and us.."

after 89 days,

i thought the feelings aren't there,

macam if anything happen,i don't care,

but bila nak bersiap tu elok lak kan cam semangat gile je,

i thought i would be cool bila jumpe dgn die kan,

but not,

nervous like it was a first time,

i didnt mean to not show some respect towards u,

but bile ade org lain,

it's awkward for me,

and i'm sorry for not doing that,

serius x suka kena tegur camtu,

definitely,i'll not do as u wish nnt,

actually,

i felt guilty bout the 'syafiq's story' tu,

i'm sorry dear,

sbb by that time i was sakit hati gile dgn pe yg u ckap,

ur words really m'cabar syg la kan,

time tu b fikir i wouldn't do anything yg ade related ckit dgn curang,

that's why i do,

but it just for my cuti sem je kot,

i don't know u act cool or not pasal bnde ni,

i don't xpect u to be jealous,

cuz i thought u don't love me,

i wanna start crying when i telling u the truth of this and that on the rooftop,

i didn't meant to hurt u,

i dont know if it's hurt u,

cause it seems like u never care what i wanna do,

but seriously i have no hard feelings towards anybody xcept u,

tp sure la syg kena mark dgn b kan pas ni,

dah wat kes kan b,

it's ok,

i got reasons why i do that dear,

i dont wanna mess ur head with my childish2 att,

and teman syg borak2 on my boring2 day je,

that's why syg cam senyap je kan masa cuti sem hari tu,

x wat hal sgt pon kan,

i supposedly not that cool la dear,

but i like the day we date tau,

i mean we are not really like a lover but we act like a bestie,

i like it more dear,

i know i'm a bit boring,

maybe not a bit but a lot,

i dont know what to talk,

i dont know how to respond in most of the thing u up to,

saya ni mmg membosankan kan??;p

how sweet u're kan when u rela2 je kan sejuk2 for me,

entah la,

tapi kan i like u more than before,

i saw some difference in u,

my favret part,now and then,slept with u,

i miss u when called me to slept beside,near u,

comel tau..;)

i miss when u hug me when we were sleep,

i miss when u kiss my forehead before and when i sleep,

i miss when u say goodnight and kiss my cheek,

it's like i never wanna let u go though for single moment,

and whenever i wake up in the morning,

i always stare at u,

and i started play with ur hair,

then whispers "good morning",

and i wanna give u good morning kiss,

but takut u'll terjaga lak kan,

oh dear!

my tears start to come out,

hehe..

i miss u so much,

i know i might not be the one that u'll remember for ur entire life,

the one u live with either,

i'm not pretty enough for u,

i'm not hot enough for u,

and i'm not really kind-hearted for u,

i never ask u to always remember me,

i never ask u to spend most of ur time with me,

i never force to be loyal towards me,

i never hope u to appreciate what i did to u,

i never ask u to change a thing just for me,

also to love me even i do it so,

truly from my heart,

i admit i'm too loving u,

dan bukan setakat syg tp cinta,

but it's enough for me to do the best for u as i can,

i never hope u did the same thing as i do,

this is how love called for me,

yes,

sometimes i do jealous with my own friend,

and though i miss my old moment with u,

i'll never ask more dear,

it's enough for me to give up all i have to u,

and when i end my writing here,

it means i should forget what i've been through with u on the last great weekend,

or i'll miss u more and keep messing ur life with my text,

i know why u like to read this,

cause it's all about u,

and i know how it feels when u got someone so crazy over u,

too adore u,

i miss u so much,

u worth my tears and my smile.

so when's the next?

p/s:i maybe stop writing here but actually i wrote on my diary.one day,i'll let u read.